“I was melting through the floor as I gasped for what felt like my last breath,” reads an excerpt from Zoey Bullock’s journal that she shared in an email. Over the phone, she agreed to share some of her journal entries with me. She says she usually doesn’t talk about what happened and up until now, her only outlets have been music, journaling, and sharing pieces of her story with her Instagram followers.
When speaking to the 26-year-old cannabis strategist, there was a resounding terror and heartfelt healing present in her voice as she began to tell her story.
In 2005 when Bullock was only 12-years-old, she was raped by two strangers. “Advanced” for her age, she says at the time of her assault she was hanging around the wrong crowd, which consisted of 18 to 21-year-olds.
“I was drugged. I could feel everything that was happening to me, but I couldn’t get them to get off of me,” shared Bullock.
After the assault, she was in the hospital being treated by a psychiatrist when the doctors decided to put her on the medications Abilify, Zoloft, and Prozac to help her deal with the post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) that she was experiencing.
“[The] medications didn’t work. I just wanted to bawl my eyes out,” said Bullock. “I told my parents that I just wanted to die.”
Hopeless and afraid, her flashbacks were frequent and intense. “I felt like there was nothing that could help me. They would keep switching the medications and I would get worse,” Bullock told High Times. Within a year, after trying so many medications, Bullock attempted suicide
Once she was out of the hospital, some of her neighborhood friends introduced her to cannabis. Her parents were against it given her age and the heavy …
Author: Lyneisha Watson / High Times